Originally intended to document my experience of DeLorean ownership, focus is often radical and strange, boring and obtuse.

Saturday, March 01, 2014

Kicking Me When I'm Down

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Thanks to social media, blogs the world over have suffered, and while I'm guilty of that it's not the primary reason I'd stopped writing. 2013 was a very bad year for me. Here, in the past, I seem to have written some controversial posts and, as a result, gained a lot of haters. I have since tried to eliminate anything negative, even when factual. So, rejoice everyone who despised me! Your collective negativity toward me has, perhaps, rewarded you.

I began suffering health problems in the late part of 2012 and my condition declined into 2013. My blog became difficult to write as I grew more and more confused. At first it was just the odd word, but around May it became impossible for me to hold a conversation. At the same time I began to lose my hearing. People 12 inches from my face were sometimes impossible to hear, while people 40 feet away sounded as if they were shouting in my ear. It worsened to the point that every noise above a whisper became painful.

During this time I was also unable to sleep. In fact, I thought this was the root of my problems. I was exhausted all the time. Countless friends told me, "You don't have kids! You have no idea what tired is!" And I believed them, when instead I should've been telling my doctor.

In the summer my exhaustion became so terrible that I decided to take a Friday off work. I spent 3 straight days in bed, tossing and turning. The entire weekend's reward was about 3 hours of sleep. I couldn't lift my feet anymore, regardless of how hard I pushed myself. That's when I began falling down. But the worst part was how my body felt. My heart hurt, and my whole body felt... wrong. I knew something terrible was happening but I didn't know what.

One day, at the hospital, a specialist gave me my answer. What he found was simple, but severe. What I had was a serious vitamin B12 deficiency. Normal B12 levels (supposedly) range between 250 and 900 pg/ml. Some respected doctors even feel that damage to your body begins when your levels drop below 350. And what was mine? Mine was 130.

My specialist phoned my doctor immediately and told him I urgently needed B12 shots. My heart was in danger. The next day I started a 6-week regimen of weekly shots followed by a 6 week regimen of bi-weekly shots. I am now up to monthly shots.

Around Christmas I had considerable improvement, sleeping about 4 hours a night. I started to feel better, and that's when I really got hit hard.

By a car that is.

In the first week of January I was rear-ended at a red light. A young girl, distracted by her phone, drove her SUV straight into me at 65 kph. My glasses flew off my face and cracked against the windshield. The impact sent me 15 feet into the car in front of me - a mother, her 8-year old and her 1-year old. With tears streaming down my face, I nervously wiggled my toes and reached under my coat to feel my searing spine. I was ok, sort of. Paramedics put me on a backboard and rushed me to hospital.

My seatbelt had torn all the muscles in my left shoulder, a tendon in my left shoulder, and caused nerve damage to the ulnar and radial nerves in my left arm. I lost all the strength in my left arm; it flopped around like a towel hanging from my neck. I was terrified, frustrated and angry.

For three weeks I couldn't move my head due to the pain. But after a month of Naproxyn, Tylenol 3s and muscle relaxants, I started physiotherapy. Today I'm back at work, but the fingers in my left hand are still numb. I'm crossing my fingers that my seven remaining weeks of physio will get me back to who I used to be.

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Blogger awildermode said...

I missed your posts here an on various social media outlets. I was afraid you abandoned social media, or worse...unfriended me. Glad to hear you are feeling better. I am still looking for Hot Wheels DMC #1250, no luck. Hope to see you in June

10:10:00 PM

Blogger Unknown said...

Martini: You're in my thoughts and prayers! The blog will always be here. I've always enjoyed your DMC posts. The most important thing is to get better and you are clearly moving forward to do all you can. Stay with it!

3:43:00 PM

Blogger mmat said...

Holy crap. Glad to hear you're alive after all of that. Keep going strong, I need more whiskey reviews and Delorean pics.

7:53:00 PM

Blogger Martini said...

Hi everyone, thanks for your concern. I am working hard to get better and my intention is to get back to posting regularly.

10:23:00 AM

Anonymous Shecky said...

You'll be back to normal soon, Marty. Good luck with the recovery.

7:59:00 PM

Blogger Martini said...

Thanks! See you soon... I hope.

8:06:00 PM

Anonymous Dan said...

Take X[?] at trying to leave a comment...glad to hear you're ok, all things considered! Hope your recovery from both the crash and the B12 deficiency continues well!

12:53:00 PM

Blogger Jay said...

Yikes, both scary brushes with ill health. It's scary how fast something so precious can be taken away from you. I'm glad you sought help when you did. I had a weird vitamin deficiency too, about 10 years ago. Nothing so serious, but I too had lots of weird symptoms that I felt reluctant to discuss with anyone because they didn't add up to me and I just kept brushing them aside. I guess we need to learn to listen to our bodies a bit more! Glad you're on the mend, but I know that healing is a long path and I hope you're doing okay. Thanks for sharing this.

12:54:00 PM

Blogger Martini said...

Thanks everyone. As you can tell from the blog neglect I'm not out of the woods. I've had setbacks and LOTS of tests and doctor's appointments. I am actually shocked at just how long this healing process is. Still don't quite have my full, normal hearing back, so I'm assuming it will take a year to for the nerve in my left arm to recover. Very scary indeed.

6:01:00 PM


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